Does that really work for you?
So in the last couple of weeks I have met a few of my neighbors. First let me say they are quite the characters....At first it seemed like they were normal people, but as time has gone on and I have encountered them either at the pool or passing in the hall my perspective has drastically changed. The new neighbor that I have is so full of himself it's as if his head can't fit through the door. Let's just say he thinks his stuff don't stink if you know what I mean. Let me give you this little scenario as he is talking to me just giving me the friendly "hello neighbor how are you" convo he proceeds to make his chest mucscles jump and finishes up with flexing other muscles that I could seriously care less about. Of course it's distracting and not in the way he is hoping for. All I can think to myself is "wow does he really think this impresses women?" and as I am thinking this it is taking all I have to hold in the laughter for sure! So ok that's the neighbor that I occassionally run into and have to laugh at. I did see him bring home some little girl that could pass for maybe 15 on a good day and I just shook my head for her, b/c kudos to her if she can actually put up with that personality. I honestly have no idea how he even lured her back to his house...she's probably one of those girls that are in desperation for attention and is willing to not only lower the standards, but settle none the less. Ok and we know that we have all been there settling for whatever guy shows the attention(I'm not just talking sexual this also applies to being in relationship)....and it may not be the guy who wants to bounce his muscles, but we've all been there compromising our standards.
Onto the next bizarre character I met. So let me just give you a background of how this one came about. Connor and I are at the pool every weekend and there is always the same kids there too with their dad....so normally Connor plays with them. A couple of weeks ago the dad comes over and starts chatting it up with me which is totally fine. I find out that he is a chef so in conversation he says "I always cook too much I will drop off some dinner to ya'll" I'm thinking free dinner heck yeah bring it on! I should have remembered what I learned in my economics class "there's no such thing as a free lunch". It's a really long story, but here's the short end of it...I thought I was just helping Connor make friends and the weekend dad had a different agenda. Which really aggrivates me b/c he just ruined it for the kids. He has now made it uncomfortable and awkward. Not only that but I can't escape him we live in the same place! Just a side note to the fellas don't use your kids to try and bait a woman it won't work...we see right through you!
So there it is a couple of cooky characters that I live amongst. I'm kinda stand offish to meet anymore of my neighbors!
Until the next time....
Friday, May 27, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I admit it....I'm addicted:/
It all started with a late night text from my twin Laura....she couldn't seem to sleep. Being a creature of nosiness I just had to find out what ailed her. Her answer to me: "angry birds". Now for most of the world you know what I'm talking about, but obviously I was left out of the loop on the phenomenom. This just sounded ridicoulous what in the world is angry birds I thought? It was a simple answer "the whole world is playing it".
And then it happened.....my outsider perspective of turning my nose up to such a game was changed forever. Once I started I couldn't stop...I still can't! These birds are angry yes, but let me just state for the record that anyone with anger issues should not be advised to participate in such an adventure! Sometimes your aim may not be on target and you waste a bird....uh the aggrivation of a perfectly good bird wasted. The first night that I started playing it I made the mistake of letting Connor in on the action. The problem with this is that I didn't want to share....wait....am I supposed to be setting an example of sharing.....ah that's over rated the kid can wait all parental guidance became null and void....move over kid get your own phone! Side note he unlike his mother knows how to share and was very patient with his mommy:) thank goodness lol
So the moral of the story be weary of partaking in what the world maybe doing it just may suck you into the addiction:) And to Laura if I need to be admitted to some rehab or group you get to foot the bill!
Hope everyone enjoys their memorial day weekend...I'm sure I will be found by the pool secretly playing Angry birds!
Until the next time....
It all started with a late night text from my twin Laura....she couldn't seem to sleep. Being a creature of nosiness I just had to find out what ailed her. Her answer to me: "angry birds". Now for most of the world you know what I'm talking about, but obviously I was left out of the loop on the phenomenom. This just sounded ridicoulous what in the world is angry birds I thought? It was a simple answer "the whole world is playing it".
And then it happened.....my outsider perspective of turning my nose up to such a game was changed forever. Once I started I couldn't stop...I still can't! These birds are angry yes, but let me just state for the record that anyone with anger issues should not be advised to participate in such an adventure! Sometimes your aim may not be on target and you waste a bird....uh the aggrivation of a perfectly good bird wasted. The first night that I started playing it I made the mistake of letting Connor in on the action. The problem with this is that I didn't want to share....wait....am I supposed to be setting an example of sharing.....ah that's over rated the kid can wait all parental guidance became null and void....move over kid get your own phone! Side note he unlike his mother knows how to share and was very patient with his mommy:) thank goodness lol
So the moral of the story be weary of partaking in what the world maybe doing it just may suck you into the addiction:) And to Laura if I need to be admitted to some rehab or group you get to foot the bill!
Hope everyone enjoys their memorial day weekend...I'm sure I will be found by the pool secretly playing Angry birds!
Until the next time....
Thursday, April 21, 2011
WHEN IT'S NOT ALWAYS SUNSHINE AND ROSES
So this week I found a saying that I absolutely love and think it rings so true for everyone. "IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE ME AT MY WORST THEN YOU DON'T DESERVE ME AT MY BEST". I believe that it's easy to commit to someone or something when the road is smooth and good, but it's the hard road that is difficult to swallow sometimes. I believe that if you truly love someone then this love should be unconditional, gut wrenching, committed, not labeled, and an uncensored kind of love. When someone loves you they should love ALL of you, who you are, what you're about, what you stand for, the good, and bad. I don't think there should be " I will love you if..." Life is hard enough without someone putting these stipulations on you. What everyone needs in love is a supporter, best friend, a lover, and a fan. No one is perfect and neither is life so there will always be a bump in the road. There will be times when we fall and whoever is standing next to us should be the one who picks us back up. Never leaving our side and never swaying in the opposite direction of us. These are just a few of my thoughts on "true love" and what it looks like to me. I will not accept anything less from the person I am supposed to do my life with. Why would anyone deserve the very best of me if they can't take the worst?
So this week I found a saying that I absolutely love and think it rings so true for everyone. "IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE ME AT MY WORST THEN YOU DON'T DESERVE ME AT MY BEST". I believe that it's easy to commit to someone or something when the road is smooth and good, but it's the hard road that is difficult to swallow sometimes. I believe that if you truly love someone then this love should be unconditional, gut wrenching, committed, not labeled, and an uncensored kind of love. When someone loves you they should love ALL of you, who you are, what you're about, what you stand for, the good, and bad. I don't think there should be " I will love you if..." Life is hard enough without someone putting these stipulations on you. What everyone needs in love is a supporter, best friend, a lover, and a fan. No one is perfect and neither is life so there will always be a bump in the road. There will be times when we fall and whoever is standing next to us should be the one who picks us back up. Never leaving our side and never swaying in the opposite direction of us. These are just a few of my thoughts on "true love" and what it looks like to me. I will not accept anything less from the person I am supposed to do my life with. Why would anyone deserve the very best of me if they can't take the worst?
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Change is in the air.... So much change is going on in the life of me. Things at work have changed....I've now taken on a new position in addition to my normal one at work. I am looking forward to the new challenges and learning new things. I think that it will only be an opportunity that will definitely benefit me. There have been some set backs in my personal life that I am now trying to deal with. Definitely something that I didn't see coming, but at the same time I'm looking at it as another life lesson. In addition to that my first approach to handling it wasn't the smartest way and that seemed to throw me into some things of the past, but again handling it! I think my focus is definitely going to shift over to Connor. He is always my focus, but sometimes it's easy for life to get overwhelming and forget to take the time out to just enjoy the simple things. So my new goal is to try and find some new and fun ways to spend our time together. After all I'm sure I will wake up and those days will be gone so I don't want to miss out on these important times. Eventhough I have had some curve balls thrown at me recently I have to remember that I have A LOT to be grateful for. And when I think it's bad there's always someone else in this world that has it worse than me so what's the point in focusing on the negative? I am so blessed to have Connor in my life...he is my heart and he definitely makes my life make sense and everything I do is worth it b/c of him. Until the next time......
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
New Year New Me
I have high hopes for the new year! I started it off by closing the door to my past and started looking forward. I have decided that I will no longer be anyone's doormat I don't care who you are. And I can say that I have actually taken action by making sure that I'm not confused with the door mat! So really I only have a couple of things that are on my list for 2011 goals please see below:
1. Working out at least three times a week. It's been interesting having on this extra weight, but it's worn out its welcome so BYE BYE PESTY 10LBS!
2. Save money for next year's tuition
3. Take Connor on an inexpensive mini vacation this year preferably the summah time:)
So that's really all that I'm working toward this year. What are your resolutions/goals?
Until the next time.....
I have high hopes for the new year! I started it off by closing the door to my past and started looking forward. I have decided that I will no longer be anyone's doormat I don't care who you are. And I can say that I have actually taken action by making sure that I'm not confused with the door mat! So really I only have a couple of things that are on my list for 2011 goals please see below:
1. Working out at least three times a week. It's been interesting having on this extra weight, but it's worn out its welcome so BYE BYE PESTY 10LBS!
2. Save money for next year's tuition
3. Take Connor on an inexpensive mini vacation this year preferably the summah time:)
So that's really all that I'm working toward this year. What are your resolutions/goals?
Until the next time.....
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Merry Christmas!
It's just a few days away from Christmas. I am so excited for the holiday. I love this time of year time with family and friends. I am really looking forward to Connor getting all of his new stuff and playing with it all with him. The best gift of the season is most definitely without a doubt JESUS! Hope everyone enjoys their holiday and remembers what it's all about.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS:)
It's just a few days away from Christmas. I am so excited for the holiday. I love this time of year time with family and friends. I am really looking forward to Connor getting all of his new stuff and playing with it all with him. The best gift of the season is most definitely without a doubt JESUS! Hope everyone enjoys their holiday and remembers what it's all about.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS:)
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Being the stronger person is exhausting....
As of now I work a full time job along with three other small jobs on the side. This weekend I have come to realize that I have to get yet another part time job. The situation I am in is completely alone with Connor who solely depends on me. The help that I have gotten will most probably stop all together with the way things are going. So in order to keep the condo I just purchased and Connor in his ah-mazing school it calls for yet another job. Everyone says that I am a strong person, someone who isn't afraid of work, and determined. These things are true yes, but a part of me feels that it's unfair that I have to pick up the slack for those who aren't willing to step up. I give 110% to my child financially, emotionally, and providing for him. Please don't get me wrong my son is worth every little bit of it, but now I will have to spend more time away from him so eventhough I am making up for it financially he is missing out on time with his mom. I hope and pray that one day things will be different, easier, smoother, and simple. For now I have to put on the super mom cape and try not to get too worn out from it all.
Until the next time.....
As of now I work a full time job along with three other small jobs on the side. This weekend I have come to realize that I have to get yet another part time job. The situation I am in is completely alone with Connor who solely depends on me. The help that I have gotten will most probably stop all together with the way things are going. So in order to keep the condo I just purchased and Connor in his ah-mazing school it calls for yet another job. Everyone says that I am a strong person, someone who isn't afraid of work, and determined. These things are true yes, but a part of me feels that it's unfair that I have to pick up the slack for those who aren't willing to step up. I give 110% to my child financially, emotionally, and providing for him. Please don't get me wrong my son is worth every little bit of it, but now I will have to spend more time away from him so eventhough I am making up for it financially he is missing out on time with his mom. I hope and pray that one day things will be different, easier, smoother, and simple. For now I have to put on the super mom cape and try not to get too worn out from it all.
Until the next time.....
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
A mother's decision
I have the most loving, kind hearted, joyful, energetic, funny, and easy going child Connor. He has brought me so much joy and laughter since I met him. At home he is a very to himself calm child, but at school it has been a rough road for the past couple of years. I have had to talk to many teachers all saying the same thing: "he's impulsive, over reacts, doesn't think about the consequences, and disruptive to himself and others. For the past couple of years I have been convinced that he was ADD. I am sure you are wondering why didn't I address it then well due to certain promises with getting financial help I kept waiting until recently I said no more. I can't wait it's affecting his school and most of all it was affecting his little spirit. So with some MUCH APPRECIATED help we were able to take him to the pyschiatrist to get him evaluated. Low and behold he was diagnosed with ADHD. Now I am not a person that is against medication if it means the success of my child. At this point I had tried EVERYTHING with him positive and negative reinforcement and no results of improvement. It came down to the decision of medication and I did put him on it. Some parents will disagree with me in fact there are a few family members that do, but here's the kicker it's not their choice. They aren't the one who has to deal with the problem on a daily basis or take off of work to meet with teachers for his behavior. So he has been on the medication for a week and a half now. He now tells me about his great days he is having at school and he gets good reports on behavior. I spoke to his teacher this morning and she said that she has never seen so much growth in a child, that his hand writing has improved, he participates now, and he is focused. I couldn't be happier with the decision that I have made for Connor. I have seen improvements and so has his teachers.
I have the most loving, kind hearted, joyful, energetic, funny, and easy going child Connor. He has brought me so much joy and laughter since I met him. At home he is a very to himself calm child, but at school it has been a rough road for the past couple of years. I have had to talk to many teachers all saying the same thing: "he's impulsive, over reacts, doesn't think about the consequences, and disruptive to himself and others. For the past couple of years I have been convinced that he was ADD. I am sure you are wondering why didn't I address it then well due to certain promises with getting financial help I kept waiting until recently I said no more. I can't wait it's affecting his school and most of all it was affecting his little spirit. So with some MUCH APPRECIATED help we were able to take him to the pyschiatrist to get him evaluated. Low and behold he was diagnosed with ADHD. Now I am not a person that is against medication if it means the success of my child. At this point I had tried EVERYTHING with him positive and negative reinforcement and no results of improvement. It came down to the decision of medication and I did put him on it. Some parents will disagree with me in fact there are a few family members that do, but here's the kicker it's not their choice. They aren't the one who has to deal with the problem on a daily basis or take off of work to meet with teachers for his behavior. So he has been on the medication for a week and a half now. He now tells me about his great days he is having at school and he gets good reports on behavior. I spoke to his teacher this morning and she said that she has never seen so much growth in a child, that his hand writing has improved, he participates now, and he is focused. I couldn't be happier with the decision that I have made for Connor. I have seen improvements and so has his teachers.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Hope turned into being sennical
The last few days I have come to a realization that this once hopeless romantic has turned sennical. The things that use to make me say "awe" or actually believe that a guy could mean the mushy stuff has now been replaced with disbelief and disgust. No matter how hard I try to think as I use to I really can't. The walls have been built the guard is steady around my heart. This isn't something I am choosing to be, but with the last relationship I was in really has hardened my exterior. I am no longer warm and fuzzy, not affectionate, and always doubting that person who I maybe around. It has taken me over a year to even hang out with someone which I suppose is a baby step, but what's the point when I hold them at arm's length? It is not as though I enjoy this new way of thinking it's just where I am at this point in life. I'm not sure if I can get past it or through it I sure hope so. All of my hope that I once had for relationships have gone down the drain and it's sad really. Maybe one day someone will restore my faith....
Until the next time......
The last few days I have come to a realization that this once hopeless romantic has turned sennical. The things that use to make me say "awe" or actually believe that a guy could mean the mushy stuff has now been replaced with disbelief and disgust. No matter how hard I try to think as I use to I really can't. The walls have been built the guard is steady around my heart. This isn't something I am choosing to be, but with the last relationship I was in really has hardened my exterior. I am no longer warm and fuzzy, not affectionate, and always doubting that person who I maybe around. It has taken me over a year to even hang out with someone which I suppose is a baby step, but what's the point when I hold them at arm's length? It is not as though I enjoy this new way of thinking it's just where I am at this point in life. I'm not sure if I can get past it or through it I sure hope so. All of my hope that I once had for relationships have gone down the drain and it's sad really. Maybe one day someone will restore my faith....
Until the next time......
Monday, October 25, 2010
Celebrating 29 years....
This past week was my bday and I am in my last year of the twenties! Crazy how time can fly by. I had a good birthday. I had lunch with my sister and her family, my brother-in-law made a yummy cheesecake for me, my cute neice Alyssa made me some cool rings, and the rest of the day I just bummed around. One of my best friends' bday is the day after mine so we celebrated our bdays together this past Saturday night. We all went out to dinner and then finished our night downtown. I had a lot of fun just getting out and being with friends. Those things don't come too often so when they do it's definitely a treat:) I am looking forward to the new year I have high hopes for it!
Until the next time...
This past week was my bday and I am in my last year of the twenties! Crazy how time can fly by. I had a good birthday. I had lunch with my sister and her family, my brother-in-law made a yummy cheesecake for me, my cute neice Alyssa made me some cool rings, and the rest of the day I just bummed around. One of my best friends' bday is the day after mine so we celebrated our bdays together this past Saturday night. We all went out to dinner and then finished our night downtown. I had a lot of fun just getting out and being with friends. Those things don't come too often so when they do it's definitely a treat:) I am looking forward to the new year I have high hopes for it!
Until the next time...
Thursday, September 09, 2010

The best day of my life was on Sept 10, 2003
September 10th was the day that my heart grew in a way that I didn't know was possible...Connor Matthew Parrish was born all 6lbs3oz of him:) He was everything and more that I hoped for. Connor has brought such a light into my life, he has changed me into the person I am today, he's taught me patience when that wasn't in my vocabulary prior, he makes me laugh until my tummy can't take it anymore, and he's saved me in more ways than one. I can't even remember my life without him he is definitely by far the best gift that God has ever blessed me with. So tomorrow I will be celebrating the life of my precious boy! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY CONNORBUG MOMMY LOVES YOU!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Challenges with pushing thirty!
Soooo this is my final year to be in the twenties and I'm sure I will love my thirties, but as for my body it knows the difference! I have put on some extra lbs in the past year and now it's time to FIGHT BACK! I FINALLY gave up one of the most glorious things in my life Dr. Pepper. Now if you know me then you know that is quite the addiction in my life, one of the things that I love to over induldge myself in, but definitely a bad thing:( So it's been a little over a week since I have had one of my tasty drinks and so far so good. I did have a moment of weakness, but stood strong. It was after the hike that Connor and I went on...I was dying of thirst and all my taste buds could crave was my dr. pepper. I went to the gas station refused myself my love and picked up a hawaiian punch....then I put that back and got a powerade instead. This may sound silly to you, but trust me it was hard it was as if I needed to call a sponsor at that moment and have someone talk me down!
Since we have moved in our new place it's been an adjustment financially so that means NO EATING OUT. Now being a single mom it's so much easier to just hit up the drive through especially when I work ALL THE TIME. I have been cooking and forcing not only my son, but myself to eat the leftovers. (I'm not much of a left over kinda girl, but I'm learning)I'm even finding myself eating veggies again if you know me this isn't the norm.
Finally I have been back into working out thank you Lord! I have just had two foot surgeries so I was incapable of doing so until now. I'm starting off slow with just a half hour work out a day, but it's better than nothing!
So if any of you out there have any suggestions on how to get my much missed body back. Let me know!
Until the next time....
Soooo this is my final year to be in the twenties and I'm sure I will love my thirties, but as for my body it knows the difference! I have put on some extra lbs in the past year and now it's time to FIGHT BACK! I FINALLY gave up one of the most glorious things in my life Dr. Pepper. Now if you know me then you know that is quite the addiction in my life, one of the things that I love to over induldge myself in, but definitely a bad thing:( So it's been a little over a week since I have had one of my tasty drinks and so far so good. I did have a moment of weakness, but stood strong. It was after the hike that Connor and I went on...I was dying of thirst and all my taste buds could crave was my dr. pepper. I went to the gas station refused myself my love and picked up a hawaiian punch....then I put that back and got a powerade instead. This may sound silly to you, but trust me it was hard it was as if I needed to call a sponsor at that moment and have someone talk me down!
Since we have moved in our new place it's been an adjustment financially so that means NO EATING OUT. Now being a single mom it's so much easier to just hit up the drive through especially when I work ALL THE TIME. I have been cooking and forcing not only my son, but myself to eat the leftovers. (I'm not much of a left over kinda girl, but I'm learning)I'm even finding myself eating veggies again if you know me this isn't the norm.
Finally I have been back into working out thank you Lord! I have just had two foot surgeries so I was incapable of doing so until now. I'm starting off slow with just a half hour work out a day, but it's better than nothing!
So if any of you out there have any suggestions on how to get my much missed body back. Let me know!
Until the next time....
Friday, August 27, 2010
So Many Changes Happening.....
Wow it's been a while since my last blog. It's time to catch everyone up on where we are at in life!
First off I bought a condo downtown that I'm absolutely in love with! It was definitely a God thing everything worked out perfectly in my favor! Connor has more space to play which is wonderful and finally a place to call home:)
Connor has started FIRST grade which takes me back a bit! He is doing wonderful in school so far:) He has an amazing little fire cracker for a teacher just what my boy needs!
Other exciting news is that I signed him up for cub scouts. This weekend we have our very first adventure in a swamp hike! This should be very interesting especially since this mommy isn't too fond of creepy, crawly, creatures:), but if it puts a smile on my son's face I will take one for the team!
The last thing is work of course! Things are going great as usual. I'm non-stop busy, but it's a great thing that I love what I do and in that I feel so blessed.
That is all the catching up I have to do for now.
Until the next time.....
Wow it's been a while since my last blog. It's time to catch everyone up on where we are at in life!
First off I bought a condo downtown that I'm absolutely in love with! It was definitely a God thing everything worked out perfectly in my favor! Connor has more space to play which is wonderful and finally a place to call home:)
Connor has started FIRST grade which takes me back a bit! He is doing wonderful in school so far:) He has an amazing little fire cracker for a teacher just what my boy needs!
Other exciting news is that I signed him up for cub scouts. This weekend we have our very first adventure in a swamp hike! This should be very interesting especially since this mommy isn't too fond of creepy, crawly, creatures:), but if it puts a smile on my son's face I will take one for the team!
In just a short couple of weeks Connor will be turning 7! We are going to do a pirate themed swim party:) so it should be real cute!
The last thing is work of course! Things are going great as usual. I'm non-stop busy, but it's a great thing that I love what I do and in that I feel so blessed.
That is all the catching up I have to do for now.
Until the next time.....
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
When did I get old?
There are a few things that have slowly been creeping up on me for the full on attack of the age. Let me give you a quick overview:
1. My nephew graduated HIGH SCHOOL this past Saturday! Now that's just crazy enough, but to top it off when I was visiting with him in our conversation I had to stop him and get him to explain words he was throwing out there. This may not sound so crazy, but I am only ten years older how in the world did I miss the way of conversation??? So in a short matter of time I officially became the old woman who had no idea what he was talking about and trying to be "cool" by getting the meanings.
2. I am attending my first high school reunion in just a few short weeks! Yikes! This last decade really did fly by!
3. So I have had some troubles with both of my feet and for the surgery I need it was just only a matter of time, but the one I need is a surgery that a grandma usually gets. You ready for this? My bunions(I know right?) are so bad to the point that I can no longer wear any shoes that are enclosed in any kind of way! On a side note I have a 3k deductible and that's the amount of the surgery so keep your fingers/toes crossed that I can get approved for a loan. This kind of trouble is PAINFUL!
4. Last but most definitely not least my metabolism SUCKS! That is one that I wish wasn't lacking! These extra lbs are a struggle to come off peeps!
These are just some of the things that are revealing themself to me thus far. As I slowly approach 30 with hesitation my body I think is already there!
There are a few things that have slowly been creeping up on me for the full on attack of the age. Let me give you a quick overview:
1. My nephew graduated HIGH SCHOOL this past Saturday! Now that's just crazy enough, but to top it off when I was visiting with him in our conversation I had to stop him and get him to explain words he was throwing out there. This may not sound so crazy, but I am only ten years older how in the world did I miss the way of conversation??? So in a short matter of time I officially became the old woman who had no idea what he was talking about and trying to be "cool" by getting the meanings.
2. I am attending my first high school reunion in just a few short weeks! Yikes! This last decade really did fly by!
3. So I have had some troubles with both of my feet and for the surgery I need it was just only a matter of time, but the one I need is a surgery that a grandma usually gets. You ready for this? My bunions(I know right?) are so bad to the point that I can no longer wear any shoes that are enclosed in any kind of way! On a side note I have a 3k deductible and that's the amount of the surgery so keep your fingers/toes crossed that I can get approved for a loan. This kind of trouble is PAINFUL!
4. Last but most definitely not least my metabolism SUCKS! That is one that I wish wasn't lacking! These extra lbs are a struggle to come off peeps!
These are just some of the things that are revealing themself to me thus far. As I slowly approach 30 with hesitation my body I think is already there!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
The worst thing to do is nothing!
First I must start by saying that 2010 has really been good to me! I have been blessed with Connor as always, with family, work, and with becoming debt free! This year I have set some pretty high goals and I absolutely LOVE to set goals! One of my goals as you know from previous posts is to become a home owner. This is such an exciting thought to me, to be able to have something permanent in my life that represents accompolishment and to be able to give my son a backyard and a room we could paint however he wanted, b/c it would finally be a place called HOME. At the same time I am so nervous about the process. I am not worried about finding a home, but more about so many questions! Just to name a few:
1. Will they think my credit is good enough to qualify for anything?
2. If I qualify for something will it even be enough to get something in a good part of town?
3. Will I have to put money down or be able to 100% finance?
I know this may seem a little trivial to some, but I have NO CLUE about buying a home. I paid my debt off on March 5th and so as we all know it takes thirty days to post to your credit. With that being said I have just stood still in this worry, b/c I do not want to hear the word "NO". I don't know about you, but I am not too fond of rejection. I personally don't want to hear "Sorry all that hard work you have been doing doesn't really matter-NEXT!" I was talking to a friend of mine and they said something that made me move forward FINALLY! "The worst thing you can do is nothing" This sounds pretty common sense, but I need someone to remind me! So today I sent off my application to a lender and we will see what happens. Please keep me in your prayers for pre-approval!
Until the next time.....
Friday, April 16, 2010
A SINGLE MOMMY'S STRUGGLES TO PUSH THROUGH.....
I have been a single mommy to my amazing son Connor for 6.5 years now. I love him more than life itself, but doing it on my own has had it's challenges in so many different ways, but I'm not one who ever quits even when I think I can't push through much more. When Connor was only 3 months old I went back to school and from then on out for the next three years I worked a full time job during the day, went to school full time at night, and took care of Connor. Unfortunately at some point I got burned out on the chaotic schedule and the lack of rest so something had to give at least temporarily. Ultimately I put school on the back burner, b/c you can't quit the job due to the fact that you have someone who depends on you every single second of every single day. *PLEASE NOTE* THIS IS IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM A COMPLAINT ABOUT MY CONNOR! This is just the simple facts of my situation and doing it on my own...trust me this is leading up to some good:) So I worked hard to be the best at my job and learn as much as I could along side with being the very best mom I could be. Eventhough I was working so hard in both departments I still felt this sense of failure, b/c I didn't finish school yet. No matter how much I achieved at work or the praise I may have received it didn't matter the negative thought still lingered. I seriously didn't think that I would get to the point of feeling peace and acceptance with not finishing, but last week that feeling has changed! I am more than happy to announce that all of my hard work has paid off and I got promoted and am getting an assistant:) Now I was promoted in my last job, but this promotion is a bit different. It's really not all about the promotion it's about when I reflect back on where I was 6 years ago to where I am now it truly amazes me. There are points in my life that I have no idea how I pulled it off financially with the pay that I was getting vs. the bills and needs of Connor. I promise you it was only by the grace of God that was pulling me through. I have worked so hard to make something of myself without the degree and sometimes so hard on myself about if I would be there, and moments of wanting to just give up, but I didn't! A part of me just wants to reach out to other single moms like myself and encourage them to keep pushing through to let them know that even in the toughest times you can get through it.
Until the next time.....
I have been a single mommy to my amazing son Connor for 6.5 years now. I love him more than life itself, but doing it on my own has had it's challenges in so many different ways, but I'm not one who ever quits even when I think I can't push through much more. When Connor was only 3 months old I went back to school and from then on out for the next three years I worked a full time job during the day, went to school full time at night, and took care of Connor. Unfortunately at some point I got burned out on the chaotic schedule and the lack of rest so something had to give at least temporarily. Ultimately I put school on the back burner, b/c you can't quit the job due to the fact that you have someone who depends on you every single second of every single day. *PLEASE NOTE* THIS IS IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM A COMPLAINT ABOUT MY CONNOR! This is just the simple facts of my situation and doing it on my own...trust me this is leading up to some good:) So I worked hard to be the best at my job and learn as much as I could along side with being the very best mom I could be. Eventhough I was working so hard in both departments I still felt this sense of failure, b/c I didn't finish school yet. No matter how much I achieved at work or the praise I may have received it didn't matter the negative thought still lingered. I seriously didn't think that I would get to the point of feeling peace and acceptance with not finishing, but last week that feeling has changed! I am more than happy to announce that all of my hard work has paid off and I got promoted and am getting an assistant:) Now I was promoted in my last job, but this promotion is a bit different. It's really not all about the promotion it's about when I reflect back on where I was 6 years ago to where I am now it truly amazes me. There are points in my life that I have no idea how I pulled it off financially with the pay that I was getting vs. the bills and needs of Connor. I promise you it was only by the grace of God that was pulling me through. I have worked so hard to make something of myself without the degree and sometimes so hard on myself about if I would be there, and moments of wanting to just give up, but I didn't! A part of me just wants to reach out to other single moms like myself and encourage them to keep pushing through to let them know that even in the toughest times you can get through it.
Until the next time.....
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I AM FREE.....DEBT FREE!!!!!!
First let me start off by saying that paying off all my debt was an ah-mazing feeling! As of last Friday everything that was pulling me down on the credit score was wiped CLEAN! Phew was that a relief:) The only debt I have is my car and it's good debt so no worries.
So for my list of goals I have met one @ 100% moving onto looking into buying a house for me and my lil man so exciting!
Now it's time to start marking off the next big one on the list: this unnecessary, unwanted, didn't invite you weight gain! The good news is that I have already started working towards this goal and in the process will rule out another goal=no caffeine! Let me give you a back story of my life's diet:
1. Very picky eater whose taste buds do not salivate under any circumstance for fruits or veggies
2. Dr. Pepper daily consumption=5-6 per day yes people you read that right PER DAY!
So far I have completely STOPPED eating out so that will definitely prove to help the situation. Being that I am not one to go gaga over the health stuff there is one vegetable that I do enjoy and that is the oh so yummy cucumber. Well in my obsessive consumption of the cucumber I wondered to myself if it was doing more harm then good...so I looked it up and I discovered that not only was it not fattening, but it is known as a fat burning food among others! I had no clue that there was such a thing. You can stop laughing now, but I wasn't raised with all the healthy foods and home cooked meals. I was raised by my amazing mother who was also a single mommy who worked NON-STOP. So for those of you who are in the dark like I was check it out here on which foods can benefit weight loss:
http://www.webterrace.com/fat/diur.htm
Ya'll can totally thank me later for the enlightenment! Onto the next thing I am down to 3 dr. peppers a day! Now I must be honest it is one of my loves and addiction so I am definitely feeling the withdrawls and it sucks, but I will make it through! I am hoping that by the end of the week we can be down to maybe 1-2 a day.
I have a deadline of quitting smoking on April 1st 2010. I have a deadline at work and when I meet that deadline with my project I verbally and hand wrote a committment to quitting. So around that time I suggest little contact with the public:) hahah
Well that is all the updates for now
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.....
First let me start off by saying that paying off all my debt was an ah-mazing feeling! As of last Friday everything that was pulling me down on the credit score was wiped CLEAN! Phew was that a relief:) The only debt I have is my car and it's good debt so no worries.
So for my list of goals I have met one @ 100% moving onto looking into buying a house for me and my lil man so exciting!
Now it's time to start marking off the next big one on the list: this unnecessary, unwanted, didn't invite you weight gain! The good news is that I have already started working towards this goal and in the process will rule out another goal=no caffeine! Let me give you a back story of my life's diet:
1. Very picky eater whose taste buds do not salivate under any circumstance for fruits or veggies
2. Dr. Pepper daily consumption=5-6 per day yes people you read that right PER DAY!
So far I have completely STOPPED eating out so that will definitely prove to help the situation. Being that I am not one to go gaga over the health stuff there is one vegetable that I do enjoy and that is the oh so yummy cucumber. Well in my obsessive consumption of the cucumber I wondered to myself if it was doing more harm then good...so I looked it up and I discovered that not only was it not fattening, but it is known as a fat burning food among others! I had no clue that there was such a thing. You can stop laughing now, but I wasn't raised with all the healthy foods and home cooked meals. I was raised by my amazing mother who was also a single mommy who worked NON-STOP. So for those of you who are in the dark like I was check it out here on which foods can benefit weight loss:
http://www.webterrace.com/fat/diur.htm
Ya'll can totally thank me later for the enlightenment! Onto the next thing I am down to 3 dr. peppers a day! Now I must be honest it is one of my loves and addiction so I am definitely feeling the withdrawls and it sucks, but I will make it through! I am hoping that by the end of the week we can be down to maybe 1-2 a day.
I have a deadline of quitting smoking on April 1st 2010. I have a deadline at work and when I meet that deadline with my project I verbally and hand wrote a committment to quitting. So around that time I suggest little contact with the public:) hahah
Well that is all the updates for now
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.....
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
CONNOR CONVERSATION=PURE ENTERTAINMENT
Connor: "Mommy, I'm just too old for all this work at school"
Me: "What kind of work Connor?"
Connor: "You know: door holder, line leader, calendar counter...it's just too much"
SILENT PAUSE FOLLOWED AFTER ME QUIETLY LAUGHING TO MYSELF......
Connor: "Mommy, I'm sorry that I day dreamed at school last year"
Me: "Baby that's ok you just have to remember to pay attention to your teacher"
Connor: Short pause...."Mommy, when I daydream my eyes go crossed and then I get eye boogers!"
Me: UNCONTROLLABLY LAUGHING....BWAHHHAAAA
SO LOVE THAT KID HE MAKES MY WORLD MAKE SENSE:)
Connor: "Mommy, I'm just too old for all this work at school"
Me: "What kind of work Connor?"
Connor: "You know: door holder, line leader, calendar counter...it's just too much"
SILENT PAUSE FOLLOWED AFTER ME QUIETLY LAUGHING TO MYSELF......
Connor: "Mommy, I'm sorry that I day dreamed at school last year"
Me: "Baby that's ok you just have to remember to pay attention to your teacher"
Connor: Short pause...."Mommy, when I daydream my eyes go crossed and then I get eye boogers!"
Me: UNCONTROLLABLY LAUGHING....BWAHHHAAAA
SO LOVE THAT KID HE MAKES MY WORLD MAKE SENSE:)
Monday, January 04, 2010
Bye Bye 2009 Hello 2010
As always it has been a while since my last entry! First happy new year to everyone out there! My farewell to 2009 was definitely a bittersweet, but most definitely happy to put it all behind me. I rang in the new year with one of my oldest friends very low key and I barely made it past midnight...I know such a grandma! Well I must say that I absolutely LOVE the new year, b/c it gives me a fresh start, to reflect on the past year mistakes and figure out how to do life differently, to look back on the positive things that were a blessing in my life, one of my most favorite parts about it is to set my goals, and I think most people can agree that it gives us hope for self improvement and to challenge ourselves to push to get more out of life! So below are my goals that I have set for the new year :
1. Set aside more time with Connor
2. Workout-lost 15lbs
3. Pay off my debt
4. Buy house
5. Quit Smoking
On another note here is a thought on my past decade:
In the past ten years I have lived in 4 different cities, moved 13 times, fell in love more than once, but found the deepest most overwhelming love in my son Connor, went to three different schools, has had three cars, but finally bought my fourth on my own this past year, has lost friends through the shuffle of life, has found old friends through the wonderful ways of technology, has just started figuring out who I am and not who I think people want me to be, and has been so very blessed with my amazing job and co-workers. The past decade has been one interesting journey with many tears shed of pain and joy, but as I always say it's a life lesson with no regrets!
Now for my final thought:
So I am a single mom as most of you know which means I am CONSTANTLY working either at the office or from my home almost 7 days a week. Well I have just had a revelation on something I have always known, but somehow along the way with trying to just make ends meet forgot. So here it is:
I have so much that is going on with work that during the past few days I actually set aside time just to do things with Connor and it really did make such a difference for him. Eventhough to me it wasn't that much to him it was huge he thought he had the best day ever with me, b/c we played a game and watched a movie together. I hate to admit it, but there are so many times when I put him off, b/c I am literally non-stop working even at home. I am so focused on providing for him and working hard that I forget that I need to actually stop for a minute and just be with him. To some this may sound like a no brainer, but like I said I'm so focused on providing and meeting the bills that I'm either work, work, work, or I'm just exhausted. Over his holiday break though when he got back from visiting with his dad I started pulling out the games and it really has been great for the both of us. So this will definitely be on my priorities for the year!
How are you planning to impact your new year????
As always it has been a while since my last entry! First happy new year to everyone out there! My farewell to 2009 was definitely a bittersweet, but most definitely happy to put it all behind me. I rang in the new year with one of my oldest friends very low key and I barely made it past midnight...I know such a grandma! Well I must say that I absolutely LOVE the new year, b/c it gives me a fresh start, to reflect on the past year mistakes and figure out how to do life differently, to look back on the positive things that were a blessing in my life, one of my most favorite parts about it is to set my goals, and I think most people can agree that it gives us hope for self improvement and to challenge ourselves to push to get more out of life! So below are my goals that I have set for the new year :
1. Set aside more time with Connor
2. Workout-lost 15lbs
3. Pay off my debt
4. Buy house
5. Quit Smoking
On another note here is a thought on my past decade:
In the past ten years I have lived in 4 different cities, moved 13 times, fell in love more than once, but found the deepest most overwhelming love in my son Connor, went to three different schools, has had three cars, but finally bought my fourth on my own this past year, has lost friends through the shuffle of life, has found old friends through the wonderful ways of technology, has just started figuring out who I am and not who I think people want me to be, and has been so very blessed with my amazing job and co-workers. The past decade has been one interesting journey with many tears shed of pain and joy, but as I always say it's a life lesson with no regrets!
Now for my final thought:
So I am a single mom as most of you know which means I am CONSTANTLY working either at the office or from my home almost 7 days a week. Well I have just had a revelation on something I have always known, but somehow along the way with trying to just make ends meet forgot. So here it is:
I have so much that is going on with work that during the past few days I actually set aside time just to do things with Connor and it really did make such a difference for him. Eventhough to me it wasn't that much to him it was huge he thought he had the best day ever with me, b/c we played a game and watched a movie together. I hate to admit it, but there are so many times when I put him off, b/c I am literally non-stop working even at home. I am so focused on providing for him and working hard that I forget that I need to actually stop for a minute and just be with him. To some this may sound like a no brainer, but like I said I'm so focused on providing and meeting the bills that I'm either work, work, work, or I'm just exhausted. Over his holiday break though when he got back from visiting with his dad I started pulling out the games and it really has been great for the both of us. So this will definitely be on my priorities for the year!
How are you planning to impact your new year????
Sunday, November 08, 2009
It's been a while....
It's almost been a year since my last entry. I'm not even sure if anyone follows me, but I suppose it's time for an overdue update! Where to begin? This past year has held so many changes, ups/downs, and definitely LIFE LESSONS!
First let me say that Connor is now attending the LSU Lab School and is doing wonderful there! I can't imagine a better school for him. There are 3 teachers in his classroom alone. The head teacher has her PHD, the assistant teacher is required to have a masters, and then there's the student teacher. They are very hands on and involve the parents/grandparents all the time. He has spanish class everyday, music, art, and guidance once a week. I feel truly blessed to have him in this school and there are a lot of people that helped make it possible. So to those of you THANK YOU for all the help!
My job is still the best job I have ever had. I have been there a little over a year now and it really is like a family. My boss is definitely one of the best too. I'm constantly working, but what do you expect that's the life of a single mommy? I have no complaints though, b/c not everyone can say they have a job with the economy the way it is let alone an amazing one at that.
I think one of the major things that I learned is that sometimes the people you think will accept and love you no matter what turns out the total opposite. It's really heartbreaking, but I guess that's life. I know that I'm not a perfect person I have never claimed to be one. I know that I am a person who will stick up for herself when she feels under attack on my own life. I can't apologize for speaking up and not letting someone constantly push their opinions on me if I'm not fitting into their "perfect mold". I am a very straight forward, to the point, not going to sugar coat, can't hide my emotions for the life of me kind of woman. Maybe somethings I should keep to myself I'm not entirely sure, but what's done is done unfortunately. I miss these people terribly, but at the same time what if things would go back to normal and they disagreed with my choices? Then I would have to go through the same thing all over again and putting conditional love on me when blood is supposed to be unconditional is too hard to handle. Some may think I'm being stubborn, but really I can't go through it all again. It's just not for me.
Ok so with all that out of the way let's move onto a happier note shall we?
Thanksgiving is slowly creeping up and I am really excited, b/c I am hosting my first thanksgiving feasts for some friends:) I have only cooked a thanksgiving meal one time and that was when I was married.....it turned out good if I do say so myself:) So if anyone out there wants to add a receipe that I should try out please do! Tonight I cooked for my BF Angela, her son, and of course my Connorbug. It was yummy and it reminded me of how much I enjoy to cook! The only thing is I run out of ideas so again if you have some please let me know I would love to try it out!Another exciting thing I FINALLY ordered cable! Now for many this is no big deal, but for me it's HUGE! You can only watch the same stuff so many times you know? I will definitely be looking forward to next Saturday when my non-exsistant cable comes to life! Yay:)
Well I suppose this will be enough for my catch up entry.
Until the next time......
It's almost been a year since my last entry. I'm not even sure if anyone follows me, but I suppose it's time for an overdue update! Where to begin? This past year has held so many changes, ups/downs, and definitely LIFE LESSONS!
First let me say that Connor is now attending the LSU Lab School and is doing wonderful there! I can't imagine a better school for him. There are 3 teachers in his classroom alone. The head teacher has her PHD, the assistant teacher is required to have a masters, and then there's the student teacher. They are very hands on and involve the parents/grandparents all the time. He has spanish class everyday, music, art, and guidance once a week. I feel truly blessed to have him in this school and there are a lot of people that helped make it possible. So to those of you THANK YOU for all the help!
My job is still the best job I have ever had. I have been there a little over a year now and it really is like a family. My boss is definitely one of the best too. I'm constantly working, but what do you expect that's the life of a single mommy? I have no complaints though, b/c not everyone can say they have a job with the economy the way it is let alone an amazing one at that.
I think one of the major things that I learned is that sometimes the people you think will accept and love you no matter what turns out the total opposite. It's really heartbreaking, but I guess that's life. I know that I'm not a perfect person I have never claimed to be one. I know that I am a person who will stick up for herself when she feels under attack on my own life. I can't apologize for speaking up and not letting someone constantly push their opinions on me if I'm not fitting into their "perfect mold". I am a very straight forward, to the point, not going to sugar coat, can't hide my emotions for the life of me kind of woman. Maybe somethings I should keep to myself I'm not entirely sure, but what's done is done unfortunately. I miss these people terribly, but at the same time what if things would go back to normal and they disagreed with my choices? Then I would have to go through the same thing all over again and putting conditional love on me when blood is supposed to be unconditional is too hard to handle. Some may think I'm being stubborn, but really I can't go through it all again. It's just not for me.
Ok so with all that out of the way let's move onto a happier note shall we?
Thanksgiving is slowly creeping up and I am really excited, b/c I am hosting my first thanksgiving feasts for some friends:) I have only cooked a thanksgiving meal one time and that was when I was married.....it turned out good if I do say so myself:) So if anyone out there wants to add a receipe that I should try out please do! Tonight I cooked for my BF Angela, her son, and of course my Connorbug. It was yummy and it reminded me of how much I enjoy to cook! The only thing is I run out of ideas so again if you have some please let me know I would love to try it out!Another exciting thing I FINALLY ordered cable! Now for many this is no big deal, but for me it's HUGE! You can only watch the same stuff so many times you know? I will definitely be looking forward to next Saturday when my non-exsistant cable comes to life! Yay:)
Well I suppose this will be enough for my catch up entry.
Until the next time......
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