Season 4: some of my favs:)

This is from season three, but it is one of my favorite pieces and I think Lacey is an amazing dancer! Hope you enjoy:)

ONE OF MY LOVES=SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE!

I just had a birthday last month and got the BEST present anyone has ever given me! Tickets to see my favorite t.v. show : SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE!

It is this Friday in Pensacola, Fl. and I am so excited:) I can taste it! If you know me then you understand that I live, breathe, eat, and sleep dance for as long as I can remember. This tour never passes through Louisiana so I never thought I would get the chance to see it anytime soon, but I am so glad I was wrong!

Above are some of my favorite dancers from the show:) I will definitely be posting pictures when I return!

ICE BREAKERS

If you could be invisible where would you go?
Probably on a reality show to see how real it really is:)

What was your favorite book growing up?
I don't know if it was my favorite, but it's the only that sticks out: Aleaxander and the terrible horrible no good very bad day

Where was the worst place you had to wait?
Food stamp line for the hurricane...although I met a nice lady:)

Name a food that nauseates you.
Avocados and limes ....let's just say I wouldn't make it in Mexico!

Worst grade you ever received. What subject?
"C" in math...I just stink at math..now money I can do, but algebra? Uh-Uh the thought makes me queasy!

If you were a teacher what grade would you teach?
Sophmores...1.b/c i loved high school 2. I can't teach freshmen b/c they are too excited/immature 3.can't teach juniors b/c they are too above everyone else or so they think 4. seniors are filled with senioritis! So that leaves me with a good medium with the sophmores

Now it's your turn to break the ice! If you do it let me know so I can read:)

TAKE A PEEK AT CONNORBUG ON HIS VERY FIRST FISHING EXPERIENCE WITH HIS GIGI: HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY LUCK CATCHING ANYTHING, BUT LOOK AT THAT FACE!


HE HAS SINCE THEN GONE FISHING WITH HIS POPPA AND HE CAUGHT FOUR FISH THAT HE WAS VERY PUMPED ABOUT!

CHECK OUT THE PICTURES ME AND MY BROTHERS/SISTER TOOK FOR OUR MOM'S BIRTHDAY!

CHALLENGES WITH A BLESSING IN DISGUISE

Earlier in the week I was just a driving along on my long journey home from work and my a/c started smelling fumy so I turned it out. Well I didn't make it far until I had to pull over on the side of the road due to a car running hot. Luckily I was on the phone with a good friend who was walking me through what to do and eventually a guy stopped over and helped for the rest of the process. So I had my anti-freeze all up to date or so I thought. Yesterday I was in the bank line waiting to make my deposit for my work when my car started to smoke so I pulled over in the parking lot and called Ryan. (He not only works with me, but he is married to my cousin Becki). So Ryan came to the rescue this time and filled her up for me. So after work I was on my way to p/u Connor and it started to over heat AGAIN! I am thinking ok what is the deal here? So I went to a friend's house the same friend that I was on the phone with (to make this easier I will tell you the name it's Tee). Anyway so we go over to Tee's house and stay there for a few hours and my other friend from work followed me home to make sure I made it ok. (B/c remember I live in another country!). So today I was stressin big time about what to do b/c obviously I can't go on like this! So I bring my car over to Firestone and Becki brings me to her house to wait. I get the call and here's the breakdown: a busted radiator, hoses, and temperature gage! I am just thinking oh wow what to do. So they tell me the cost and I about fall out of the chair....So I tell them not to work on it, b/c let's face it I am a single mommy with barely enough money to pay the bills let alone fix my car. Let me just say that God ALWAYS amazes me when He just steps in and makes a way through the storm. Becki came in the house and said that Ryan offered to put the charge on his credit card and I can pay them back when we all get those lovely refunds from the IRS in May. I am so thankful for the awesome family that I have. I do have to say that I am blessed with a family that knows how to reach out and help each other in time of need whether it's a financial bind or an emotional crisis. I am not the type of person to ask for help and I have a hard time accepting it, but I am learning that sometimes you have to swallow your pride and just welcome the help. So THANK YOU RYAN AND BECKI for the help and for the love and support!

KNOCK*KNOCK* WHO IS IT? OPPORTUNITY!

It's me reporting from good ole Ville Platte! I am visiting with my dad until tomorrow. And along with the visit came a proposal....the opportunity to move to Ville Platte have minimum bills to worry about and the greatest possibility handed to me: to finish getting my degree. I started back in school when Connor was a baby and at this point I was living with my mom. She gave me the chance of staying with her and just focusing on Connor and school. Being the stubborn person I am I decided that the rough route was much more appealing. So to prove that I could handle Connor on my own and make my own way with my family I moved out. I continued to go to night school while working a full time job with little time to spend with my son. Eventually the situation became much more difficult to keep up. So I have sat out two semesters...and with the location of where we are living once Connor starts school I won't have anyone to help me with him. One of my biggest goals is for me to finish school. I am still unsure of what I want to major in, but I do know that I want to provide for Connor in the way that he deserves and not just by living from paycheck to paycheck. Phew* that was a lot said.....so with a smudge of the background story now you can see how this is a great opportunity for me. Nothing is set in stone yet, but if it's God's plan things will fall into place for this to happen. Yes I would be living in the one place that I said I never would, but a few years of sacrifice isn't all that bad to get to the end result! So please keep me in your prayers!

THE WORLD ACCORDING TO CONNOR:

So my baby boy is growing up I should know I registered him for kindergarten last Friday! Ahhhh....ok I am calm I promise:) Anyway Connor has really been into this place we call earth and all of the things that are here. We always have a REALLY long ride home from school so we have plenty of mommy/Connor time. He must be learning about how God created everything, b/c anytime he sees something whether it's a bug or a building he always says"Mommy who put that building there" and then before I can answer he answers himself by saying "God put that there". It is really cute actually. Our daily conversations are filled with talk about God. And I love it when he asks me something and after I give him the answer he decides he wants to tell God about it. For instance we passed a storage building and this is how the conversation went:

Connor: Mommy what's that?

Me: That's a storage building.

Connor: Oh like the one we use to keep my toys in?

Me: Yes that's right.

Connor: What happened to my mail box?

Me: Well honey you stopped playing with it so I got rid of it.

Connor: God doesn't like it when you get rid of my toys.

Connor in prayer: God can you let me keep my toys and not get rid of them?

Connor to me: Mommy God said yes!

The other conversation we had a few weeks ago was pertaining to Connor wanting a sibling. First off you must know that I thought my dryer was broken so I had to find things to hang our clothes to dry on. One of the things I used was a part of his baby bed. The next day we had a conversation regarding it:

Connor: Mommy that's my baby bed we need to throw it.

Me: No I want to keep it b/c one day we will have another baby.

Connor: When?

Me: Well it will be a while first God has to send mommy a husband.

Connor: Mommy I want two brothers and a sister.

Me: *Gulp big Gulp*

Connor: Mommy I think your husband will be "Jake"

Connor talking to God: God please send mommy Jake.

Connor to me: Mommy God said he will send you Jake.

So as everyone can see Connor has been doing a lot of thinking and praying! Oh which reminds me I had him pray with me one night and I had a lot of things on the prayer list that particular night ...so I would say something and he would repeat what I said as his prayer...when it was all over with he looked at me and said "mommy that was a lonnnngggg prayer". It was funny. I am just so grateful that he is asking so many questions and seeking out God in his own way.

TAKING IN A BREATH TO LET GO....

First let me say that God is an AWESOME God! He has showed me NUMEROUS times of what I don't need in my life. And of course He knew that b/c of my stubborness He would need to open my eyes more than once. Yesterday morning when I woke up I didn't think I would have a rude awakening, but I did and it has put things in perspective for me and has put the final nail in the coffin so to speak. I have made my mistakes, but the most important thing is that I learn from them and seek His plan and not my own agenda. In the end He is the only one who knows what I truly need and deserve. And looking at my track record of failed relationships I am not qualified to pick out my husband! I believe everything does happen for a reason and that there is a lesson in everything we do. Here is what I have learned about what a marriage should have:

First you MUST have Jesus in the core of it!

Second marriage is a life long commitment that shouldn't be taken with a grain of salt

Third you should think of your spouse first before yourself

Fourth you should be with someone that you could fall in love with over and over again

*Most importantly* make sure that you know that this person is the one God specifically designed for you! So important.

So I have made my final choice and it is time to breathe in and let go of the past and place my present and future in God's hands. I know that through this I will overcome with victory!

Look at my little man and tell me that isn't inspiration to push through the storm.

JUST ME AND YOU KID....

Wow it's been a while! Sorry guys have had a lot going on. Well first thing is first I took some time to myself a couple of weeks ago to re-evaluate what I want and need and let's just say it's just me and Connor. It wasn't an easy choice to make, but it has been made. Not to say that life right now is easy, b/c trust me it's not.

Onto more news: the results of my MANY tests! So I saw Dr. Hilton and my hormone levels came back normal which praise God! Although my MRI came back and showed a lump on my pitutary gland so now I am having to take medicine. I won't see him again until the summer. So keep me in your prayers that it vanishes!

This past Monday I took Connor to have his shots for kindergarten and I was so dreading it. I didn't tell him why we were going, but he did AMAZING! He of course cried, but didn't fight to get away so thank God. He got four shots poor thing. We have to go back in June for one more round. He of course got transformers out of the deal:)

So really that is about all that has been going on in a nutshell! Hope everyone is well.

A THEFT IN THE NIGHT

Yesterday was trash day a day that I look forward to except the part of dragging it out to the street. Anyway last night I got home after a long day of work and right before I was going to hit the sack I remembered that I needed to bring in my trash can. I walk out there and don't you know someone STOLE my trash can! Can you believe it? Who would do that? Is it really that big of a deal to pay waste management to pick up your trash? How far will it really get them? My sticker is only good for the next two months and then what will they do? Rob someone else of their garbage can? So I was totally bummed out about that. First thing this morning I call waste management and tell them what had happened. They then informed me that I needed to file a police report and then call them back and they will deliver a new one. So how silly did I feel calling the cops to report a stolen trash can! I mean really what will the cops do? Are they going to send out a search party for the trash can that was swiped from me? Should I sit by the phone hoping that one day I will get a phone call saying they found my trash can? LOL...It's all taken care of now and I will be getting another one at no charge thank God! The lesson here be on the look out for trash can theives...I mean really I can only just hope I can hold onto the next one, b/c there is no way of chaining my trash can to the ground!

Did anyone call a plumber?????

First off let me say that in the past few days I have been having Connor do things for himself for example: give himself a bath, dress himself, and the one I am so happy about wipe himself when he goes to the potty. The other night I had his bath ready for him and he was on the potty wiping his little heart out. I was in the living room and I hear a flush assuming he will be jumping in the tub any moment: Wrong! There he was standing stark naked saying "mommy the toilet is sprinkling" So I rush into the bathroom and what do you know? The toilet is overflowing and water is EVERYWHERE! In a panic I grab my phone and call Matt (Connor's dad) and he instructs me to turn off the water. Why didn't I think of that???? So after safely turning the water off I start covering my floor in towels which by the way I used them all! I called Matt back and did what he told me, but it wasn't working. So I had a great idea after hanging up with him call my brother Danny! Danny walked me through how to get my toilet working which once that happened my tub could now drain! Let's just say plunging the toilet was an experience all in itself and it was not pretty! So Connor has now learned a valuable lesson don't use too much tp! But during the crisis he did manage to dress himself:) so this mommy was proud! Now it is safe to say that I can add yet another label to myself: PLUMBER!

ME ME MEE.....

So I was tagged by Jodie. So this one's for you JO!

The rules for this meme are: (1) Link to the person that tagged you.
(2) Post the rules on your blog. (3) Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself. (4) Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs. (5) Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

1. I have to have four cubes of ice in my drinks b/c less isn't enough and more is too much and I can't reach my drink!

2. I have to walk on the left side of people b/c the other way is so not comfortable for me and if you are on the wrong side I will move you to the right side!

3. I have to drink a dr. pepper when I take a bath

4. When I take a bite of something I must have at least two bites to even out both sides of my mouth.

5. I have a thing for playing at the park in the rain.

6. I can't sleep if my bathroom door is left open...now you must know that my bathroom is not located in my room:)

I don't have anyone to tag, but please feel free to leave your randomness as a comment for me to enjoy!

Weekend update and random thoughts!

So this weekend was pretty laid back. I took Connor for a haircut and the night before I decided that he had to use the clippers. First let me back up and say that everytime someone would attempt the clippers on him he would uncontrollably shake and cry so we NEVER used the clippers. I had made up my mind he had to get over it! So I brought him for his haircut and told him that he had to let them use the clippers and to my suprise he didn't put up an arguement and he was really great! So now he has a little boy hair cut:) Of course he got a toy for being such a sport! The only other thing we did was rent movies which he loves his(ghostbusters cartoon) and I rented License to Wed not too great....just ok.

Here are my random thoughts....I am taking a trip in a couple of weeks and family members that will remain annoymous have put in their two cents....at what point do people just let you live your life? I am 26 and I think I know what I am doing and even if it turns out to be wrong then that's on me, but the thing is I don't regret things that I do in my life, b/c it is what I wanted at the time. If it's a mistake then it is another life lesson! I understand their concern for me, but I am just going to visit a FRIEND and nothing more than that. I have known this friend for the past nine years and they have never once screwed me over in any way shape or form...they have never said one mean thing to me either. If anything they have been one of my best supporters throughout the years. I think that considering everything that I am going through I deserve a time out from my life and reality! So I am looking forward to my trip and my visit:)


Until the next time......

EMBRACING IMPERFECTION

I am not perfect so far from it...I am one who over sleeps, loses my patience more than I would like to admit, dreams of something better, lives on sandwiches, is financially stressed out all the time, starts projects that are left unfinished, eats entirely too much chocolate when down, doesn't stop at stop signs all the way, on occassion takes out my frustration with life out on Connor, too hard on myself, watches way too much t.v., needs to play with Connor more, when I am scared it seems like I am mad, too proud to ask for help,is a making a list freak, and am unforgiving of my mistakes....with all that said it's my life and no one can take any of it from me. I have these imperfections of myself and they are things that I can work on, but I will always have an imperfection or blemish about me and I am ok with being less than perfect or having the perfect life. No one will ever be perfect or have the perfect life no matter how it may look on the outside we don't know what their journey is really about. We can strive for perfection, but we will never obtain it and it will just drive us crazy and left unsatisfied.... I am perfectly content with being imperfect.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? UPS=BAD DRIVERS!

So today I was on my way back from the bank/lunch driving minding my own business....I am almost at work I mean I am on my street and everything when I pull up behind the UPS truck who is stopped. He is stopped so of course I stop...the next thing I know I have a huge brown truck backing up and me trying desperately to back up and move out of the way...well BAMMMM! It is too late the idoit hits me! I get out of my car and say you hit my car and his response to me is "I have a big truck" are you flipping joking? You mean b/c you have a big truck that eliminates the responsibility on your part to um use your mirrors and realize someone is BEHIND YOU! Well don't you know he tries later to get people who are outside to say they saw what happened which they didn't. The cop shows up and takes forever and didn't give either one of us a ticket....so needless to say I have to call my insurance company tomorrow and hope that his insurance company will pay for the paint that he managed to take out while he didn't suffer any damage! I so wanted to go postal on him.....needless to say I can no longer be friends with our UPS guy!

NEW PATH OF LIFE.....

Wow so much has changed since my last entry! First being the day I came home to a note on my computer from Jason saying he didn't want to be tied down anymore. So ever since then it's been me and my little man. It's been three months and each day is so much better than the one before. I am just trying to let it all go and move forward sometimes it's hard when you have people remind you of your situation. I can say that my family has been amazing to me and I appreciate them very much. Connor is getting better too, but sometimes he still talks about him. The other day he said he wanted a daddy and I told him he had one and he said he wanted one around all the time. I am sure you can imagine how deep my heart sunk when he said that. I know that in God's time He will provide me with the husband I am intended for. Right now my heart isn't focused on that or could even handle that, but I still have the faith for that promise. All I can do for now is continue to pray for a healing over my heart.

Until the next time.....